RachellRellik

You had the world ,at your feet
Why didnt you rule it
While you had your chance
you played the game
and you played it well
stole souls and spirits all along the way
told you a story, a cold dark tale
the chance to be something was at our fingertips
no one could tell it was time to break out
be who you are inside, what you were meant to be

You had the world
You had the stars
You had time on your side

You showed the world
You earned the scars
You bled for them all of your life
what went wrong?
You threw it all away

The glare in your eyes , we know it so well
Tells the tale of stars you've yet to touch
everyone wants, what they can not have
and soon you'll see this is how it shall be
You held everything so tightly together
Had the world eating out of your hand
You took all these for granted
With the people who were there till the end

You had the world
You had the stars
You had time on your side

You showed the world
You earned the scars
You bled for them all of your life
What went wrong?
YOU threw it all away

© DEMAS 2006 march of autum/virgo

well I've done it this time I have lost my sanity I think...
I had dreams that were so ... distracting from my sleep
I guess you could say.. even when I sleep my mind and body does not rest at all I am taken places I may not want to go
But I have no way of stopping this
I slept alone and not wanting to at all I felt like crying myself to sleep missing .. something
I have been missing a part of myself, I am gaining it back I think in some way but only becuase fate has brought me SOMETHING
I can't reveal things for fear of being broken as I usually am
I can't even think straight I have but one thought in my head
My body sore my bones brittle my mind exhusted with thoughts of another
The human mind is such a powerful thing so why can't humans themselves control it??
I mean honestly you can distract yourself but the thoughts are still there seeping, seething, waiting there for you to let them in
I have too much in my head
I need spring cleaning for my mind and soul to let some things go


My memory is getting the best of me, I keep getting flashes of insecurities in my head and thoughts of distrust that shouldnt be there.. they have no reason to be there my heart knows the truth but my head wont let me rest with my decision... I have to let this go otherwise it will ruin the best thing I have..

I saw someone in my room last night she was guiding me telling me I am loved
I wasnt scared dispite the cold feeling I knew what she was
Because I knew she sees things I can not
So I slept peaceful knowing

I have nothing left to loose
I have nothing left to give to you


Nothing will stop me
Nothing will get in my way
Nothing anyone can do or say
will stop me I will come out okay
Nothing can hold me down
Nothing can break me now
I will walk away from everything
and prove to them I'll get what I want
Nothing will distract me
Nothing will make me cry anymore
Nothing you can do to me
will stop me from having my dreams
Nothing in this world to me
Nothing more I want to see
Nothing can stop me
Nothing can get in my way

©Demas 2006

Blah.... bored at work... I need a new job. this office is drving me crazy!!!!.. anywho.. Ill be posting Demas song lyrics here very soon.. and HOPEFULLY we'll be getting a web master very very soon... I need to play a show!! I am waaay too hyper today!!


xoxoxoox

Tear me down again
shred the only thing I have left to give
you throw it back to me again
cause you don't need something that you love
the mind games have gone on
for far too long
this time you'll be the one to walk over me
save me from what I know is real
you have no idea how I feel
save me from all this pain
your the one who takes me down
I need to find my meaning
I'm useless
save me from this life with no love
your teasing me and I can't stay for too long
for you
why dont you see





god I feel so broken
nothing can save me now
we're going down hard
nothing has meaning anymore
I am so dead inside
what have you done to me
I can not fix this pain
you'vecut me up way too deep
I'm so weak
so useless
never be good enough for what you want
all i have to give
is taken thrown , shoved pushed away
I'm falling down again
strange memories of tears
they made me what I am today
How i feel today
slide down....
this is what you wanted
now you'll get everything you always wanted
I still be here waiting for anything you want to share


fuck this pain
fuck my heart
fuck this soul that i love
fuck your lies
fuck this game that we play

YOUR THE SPIDER IN THE WEB YOU WEAVE
I'M JUST THE FLY THAT YOU FEED
I WANT THIS FROM YOU ALL THE TIME
YOUR RIGHT HERE, ALL I NEED
NO FEAR WILL EVER TAKE US DOWN
NOT A SOUL TO FUCK WITH US WE'RE ON OUR OWN

BROKEN APART HERE FOR YOU
MY WEAKNESS COMES WITH NO USE
LYING HERE BROKEN BLOODY AND SORE
YOU COME BACK TO SETTLE THE SCORE
LIKE THE DOG YOU LOVE TO ABUSE
I FALL I CRAWL I THOUGHT I BELIEVED IN WHAT I SAW
SCARRED AND TORN ITS YOU I ADORE
WONT YOU PICK ME UP I'M CRAVING MORE

STICK IT THROUGH ME AGAIN AND AGAIN
RIP ME APART THEN STAPLE ME SHUT
POP A PILL THEN YOU DIE
YOU ARE THE ONE WHO HIDES IN YOUR LIES

FEEL THE SICK RUNNING OVER ME
DYING HERE FOR YOU WHY CANT YOU FUCKING SEE

THATS ME I'M ALWAYS HERE JUST FOR YOU
I GIVE AND YOU TAKE ALWAYS WANTING MORE

I'M DYING
I'M CRYING
I'M LIVING IN HELL
I'M TIRED
I'M FIRED
CANT TAKE ANYMORE
I'M COLD
I'M SOLD
NO SOUL LEFT TO TOUCH
I'M LIVING IN HELL
LIVING IN HELL FOR YOU
HERE IN HELL
HELL JUST FOR YOU
HELL YOU PUT ME THROUGH

I hate this world
and everything in it
I want to die
be alone and peaceful
love is gone and dead to me
I thought it was real
until I met you , you see
I fucking hate this life
I have no soul left
Its all been torn apart
By bile nails and shallow hearts
you disgust me
you make me fucking sick
you are the epitomy of all that is wrong with the world
fucking pig
fucking liar
fucking fake
is what you are
I hope you had time
to think about what youve done
take me and throw me
in a whirlwind of distrust and lies
you only wanted something for yourself
did I help you get over what you needed?
did it make you feel better about yourself?
do you know what you have done to me
do you realize all the hate in my eyes
the torture in my heart
its breaking apart
gave it all for you
let you in to see
a side of me not many can ever get to
you threw it away you threw it away
hope your happy where your at
you'll find peace someday
alone just like me
maybe we just werent meant to be
I have nothing left for you to see
you took it all away from me
fuck you
I take it all back
you fucking sheep
your just like the rest
think your special
theres a thousand more
just like you
a copy
a sheep
is what you are


your fucking special and you know you are
I hate myself for feeling this way
I hate you though a little bit more

Drowning inside the beauty you pull me under
seething around pain you cause others
Your dislexia with mind rules,an onslot of torture
anything that can make me stop I want to push harder and harder
Breathing I want to hear you, please don't stop
I just want you here with me now and forever
Take in me these lies you have promised
oh how I beleived them over and over
empty eyes, hollow nights
the dementia of your cold blank stare
I want to feel you near
is this real or are you faking
Can't take much more this heart is breaking....

Torn open dark and cold
Broken apart for you to mold
Pull pieces of my soul
Smash my hopes and kill my dreams
Your the whore, your the liar
Your my pain, your my fire
Cut my veins, the blood turns black
my nightmares can't complete
what you do for me
Empty just like the hole in you
Truns me inside out
Twists all around in me
Rip me apart, I know you want to
a cold blank stare is all your good for
I know you feel something else
Deep within just let it in, just let it in
Your a shallow fuck
come and go as you please
Bet you think I'll wait here just for you
I know you think your too good for what I do

Tie these weights around my neck
Drown the pain I feel within
Spending the nights
Thinking I don't care
I feel so empty with out you here
knowing inside I can't go on
with out you everything seems so wrong
with out you nothing really matters
forever is just how we'll be
turn off the game you used to play
it's only me, it's only me
After all I have done
you still don't care
it's only me, it's only me
here I am, here I'll stay
for you... for you this can end only one way
this is all just for you
it's always been all about you
Just remember this was all for you
this is now all because of you......

The way my soul lingers for another chance
to not be so cold with out you now
to not be alone, this I just can't do
I can pretend, a part of me isnt missing
and I can emagine I could pull myself together
I can't be anything without you here
you don't know what it feels like with you being near
wanting to stay this way with you
forever is such a long time to wait
why wont you promise me
you'll take me away
please just promise me
we can stay this way.......

Here in my private hell
you can take me as I am
you can bend me and break me
I will trust you when you do
you know your beautiful to everyone
they all want you
for WHAT you are
In my private hell
I can have you just for the night
You are mine and I am yours
untill tomorrow we'll go back
to the way we were
Here in my hell
I can see a side of you no one else does
A beauty that is so ugly
Its only skin deep
In my little hell
where I can be queen
you are my king
wont you answer my prayers
be the one to tear away sins and doubts
Here in my hell
I wait for you here
there is no reason
no right way for me to be
I am only here for you to see
Here in my hell
there is no better place for you to be
I will keep you safe from the world

Prisoner of my own domain
Take a look inside all the pain
What I see inside of you
I found my center
I found my whole
Decay will seed like the worms we are
burns my heart eats my soul
there is no pain too deep to overcome
they will pay for what they've done
the pain I feel
I'm sick within
Something to last
I'll wait for you

you had the world at your feet
why didnt you rule it
while you had your chance
you played the game
you played it well
broke hearts and heads all along the way
I told you my story you listened well
the chance to be something
was at our fingertips
No one could tell it was time to break out
be who you are inside
be who you were meant to be
our time will come
we will conquer
destiny will bring us
things others only emagine

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